Brief summary of life... had quite bad childhood (abused, alcoholic father, divorced parents at 6) raped,had bad relationship one after other,self harmed quite badly for many a year in many forms ( cutting, drinking,self abuse via eating disorders), survived a extremely abusive relationship.
Now, my lovely aughter has grown up married and has beautiful grandson. I now live with a kind caring loving man.
But now I cant get the feeling of wanting to cut and run away again. I cry all the time have lost my self esteem and am depressed. I went to a doctor yesterday he gave me Citalopram, am worried as I have been on various anti depressants before but not this one. The doctor ( not my usual one) answer to me telling I fight hard every day not to cut his response was " well you dont want to do that do you?". He didnt look in my file to see what tablets I had been on before or even knew that I was hospitalised a few years back for a long time. Should I see a second doctor ?or take th
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You have had many traumatic events in your life and I truly believe that you haven't had the best treatment to cope with it all.
Unfortunately GP's vary immensely on how they view depression and mental distress, and in how they treat it. You don't seem to have seen a very understanding one when you went for help. I suggest you go back and see your regular GP if you believe he/she will be more understanding, or if not, try a different one.
You do need a GP so that they can refer you on to other services within the NHS, they might feel a CPN (community psychiatric nurse), counsellor or psychiatrist would be the best person for you..... ask them for a referral and ask why the think whoever they refer you to is best for you. You do have rights and should be kept informed of what treatment you are being offered.
Another source of support could be a local mental health charity, I'm sure there will be one close to you.
Try this link to find a Mind association in your area
http://www.mind.org.uk/mind+in+your+area...
they are easy to access, all you need to do is give them a ring, and they are informal but very knowledgeable and offer all kinds of help and support.
I have used my local Mind for many years and found it to be somewhere that is a safe haven, somewhere I can go for support, somewhere to get information and somewhere that doesn't judge.
With their help and support I have now learned to cope with my own depression and value myself again. Recovery is possible, but it is hard work and there will be relapses on the way, but it really is worth the effort.
Please get yourself the help and support that you need and deserve.
Things will improve, you have done the right thing by seeking help, so carry on the good work and go and find some other help to support you while you have the medical treatment - they work very well side by side.
Go back and see your normal doctor, speak to them and perhaps he will advice you better, phone this morning. Good luck.
Wouldnt hurt to get examined by a 2nd Doctor... they make mistakes too somtimes... and it would be a good idea to see if 2nd Doc agrees with the 1st Docs opinion before taking any meds. You know when there is something not right. You know your body more than anyone else when in doubt keep asking.
Go back to your own doctor, but also speak to your partner, can you tell him how you feel.
You are amazing to have come through what you have and still be a sane rational person, don't give in to your urges please, speak to someone and share your feelings if you can.
Good luck
yeah, you should see another doctor. in fact, citalopram (aka celexa) is one of the oldest drugs on the market and doesn't show much efficacy until you reach super high doses, which will increase your side effects too.
you need to go see a therapist which will help you get your sadness and anxiety through communication while supplementing it with medication. you're probably going through a little bit of ptsd also, which isn't easily taken care of with just a pill. go get some counseling so that you can see the family that you have and not the people who have hurt you in the past.
go see your doctor again
I am really bothered by this. After reading all of what you have written, my advice to you is to start with the medication to try to help yourself for right now. But, I really think you should quit seeing regular doctors and go to a psychaitrist. I think you would be far better off with someone who specializes in these types of things. Plus, you will have someone to talk to. I don't like how this doctor acted. Sounds like he doesn't much care for dealing with this type of problem and that is bad news for you. I would begin the medicine hoping that it helped out somewhat and really concentrate on finding a good, reliable doctor. Good luck! I wish you the best!
Hi i am so sorry to hear about your life. Doctors not all but most dont really care anymore, if i was you i would take the tablets i know someone on them and they seem to be ok. Also this person was cutting himself, i wont pretend i understand why but please seek more help there are website set up for self harm have a look and see or ring samaritans and they can get you in contact with someone to help you. You say you are with someone who is kind and caring to you, please relish this i know its hard, it seems when life is good you feel more upset i dont know but the past trauma you are used to and it hard to adjust to feeling safe and not living on your nerves. When you are feeling low just take a step back and look at what you have now and how things are so much better for you. I hope you can get through this but please please try very hard. I will be thinking of you, so take care and be positive.
go to your own gp who has your file ask for referal to clinic
No my dear - no point in trying to use medical services and interventions and medication alone to try and cure what is ostensibly a psychological problem - what you need is some form of counselling - get your Doctor to refer you to a psychologist. Given what you have informed us that you suffered long-term abuse, then it is highly likely you will need Long-term intervention to resolve those difficulties.
What is happening to you is that at the time you were being abused - the memories of that abuse you buried deep within your sub-conscious mind.
Now you are in a better relationship you are beginning to relax somewhat and so the memories you had previously are now beginning to impinge upon your conscious mind and hence your urge to self- abuse yourself. Please don't do that - seek better professional help. Never let anyone tell you you are not worthy - lift your chin up - hold your head high - and believe me when I say to you - you are as good as anyone and everyone else.
for the cutting you should see a therapist that specializes in that for the antidepressants if you don't feel comfortable taking them by the way your doctor treated you, well there i can't say as i blame you. some doctors can really not listen to their patients and their needs so i would deffinaly go see another doctor and see what they say. i'm not saying that you don't need antidepressants but i am saying that you do need therapy to get though the bad stuff that has happened to you and you need to see why you want to pick up and leave. the abuse and all is probably related to that. you could also have some post traumatic stress syndorme that you may need to work out. if you feel that you have a mental illness go see a psychiatrst and talk to them they have a better knowledge of your issues and they can help you alot more, however you have to watch them too because the wrong one may also not listen. there are some great ones out there and you will find one. hope this helps and keep on being strong like you know that you are
Sounds like you've had a rough ride, speak to your regular Doctor, I like you sometimes want to run and cut loose, you dont really want that.
stand tall, hold your head up, you can do it.
Take care of yourself.
So you have given us examples of reasons why you could/should be 'happier', and the question is, Why am I depressed, and how to stop it?
If you look back in time, for a promise you may have made to yourself, which most likely involved the belief in, or reliance on, other people, and the determination to never accept it/them as a form of 'happiness', you may discover when/where you wired up the self destruct mechanism, which lots of people have, in much less 'obvious' ways.
Then, this struggle between trying to appreciate life/family and unknowingly trying to destroy 'it' is the problem, resulting in depression. ( the form of the 'promise' i cannot guess, but this was only an example to show how self destruct mechanism is put in place)
Then you say ' I have the right to change my mind, for the better.' and it changes, because it's not divided against itself anymore.
Does it matter what anti depressants you take? Did any of them cure you, or do they just prolong the agony?
I have taken Citalopram before and remember it making me very jittery and uptight, but hey, that's okay, they then gave me tranquilizers, too...i also went for psychotherapy/counselling, on the nhs - he told me it was 'normal' for a man to get an erection because of and whilst a child is on his lap.! I'm sorry but is this really true? Is it going to help anyone to hear that c rap?
Man playing God, the lot of them.
Yet when God played 'man' and healed everyone with the words - Believe it is so, what did they do?
-You can get by any which way,
But God and His Angels are there to heal you completely, if you ask.
Can relate to your situation very much, please do not give up hope, had have similar background to yourself, have struggled for years, only in this past year have I really found help, and it is working. Get in touch again with doctor and please find a counsellor, get in touch with me, if you need to chat by im, or email me, really feel for you, take care, Jean.
A second opinion/change of doctor is always a good idea if you are not confident in the one you have or have seen. Doctors all think they are right and that you are difficult if you don't agree with them. Don't let the egos of the medical profession prevent you from getting the help that is right for you. Don't feel like you are a nuisance of insulting to the doctor, they are there to help you not inflate their already overinflated God complex. See as many doctors as you want and don't let any of them stand in you way of finding the right path for you. At the end of the day, to them this is just a good Job, but to you this is what you call life.
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